Today is the night of my son's Eagle Court of Honor and there is SO much to do and set up. There is even family that will happen to be in town which will be SO fabulous to have there. I think I have everything ready... and I know it will turn out wonderful. I finished the video presentation of his scouting life complete with the audio comments of many of his scout leaders through the years. I've got his items to display, refreshments arranged, decorations ready to load, sound system already there, people hopefully scheduled to help, my own outfit picked out with eagle earrings, boys scout shirts washed & pressed, etc. I am just feeling a little down right now. I am plagued with painful thoughts... I don't even want to write them down or acknowledge them because they are probably not true, but it feels true. I know I've said it before, but I am missing my mom and dad today. Today is one of those days I would love to share with them and have them see their grandson. I can be honest I wish I could feel their love as well.
In a few months we will be moving from here. My hubs will even start sooner than that and be gone from us for a while. It's going to be a crazy 6 months or more. People are starting to learn that we are moving and pretty soon it'll be like "You're still here? I thought you were moving?" Anyway... I've got to get my head in the game right now... no time for emotional blog posts, even though that is how I'm feeling.
Tomorrow is weigh-in and I'm hoping for a big loss.... we'll see.