(From Halloween 2007)
I feel like I’ve been super mom this week... although I’m not sure my kids see it that way. Volleyball games, Eagle Project, Merit Badges, Birthday Party, Halloween Costumes, Pack meeting, Grocery Shopping, Cleaning, Laundry, Errands, more errands, taking kids everywhere, Meetings, more errands.... Ever have those days where it is non-stop running around, putting out fires, and making it all happen? Then, by the end of the day you hit that emotional “reached my limit” point? By the evening time that’s how I’ve been feeling these last few days. It’s all good stuff, though, and I’m trying to remember that.
I have this hole in my heart (metaphorically speaking) that flares up every once in a while. It’s a heartache that comes back to me now and again over certain situations and it brings me so much pain and anguish. I work so hard to “give it to my Savior” and to let it go. But sometimes it nabs me when I least expect it and brings me down. That’s when I get knocked over as everything with it piles on top and then I’m defeated... for a few days it seems. These are the times I really miss my mother being alive (and my dad) - and my family living closer. I have prayed that God would take this from me, as it seems like too much for me at times. But for some reason I need to learn and grow from it. I know it has to do with me not seeing things as they really are - BUT what I do feel seems extremely real to me at the time. I’m so thankful for a patient and loving husband who recognizes when this hits me and immediately softens and comforts me.
My husband was saying that there is usually something we need to learn when we have ongoing struggles like this - like he has with his stress. Sometimes it’s humility, sometimes it’s patience. I was on facebook yesterday and watched a video that was posted that had to do with gratitude. It was so good and it reminded me that I need to reveal His hand in all things and that the only way I offend God is by not showing gratitude for all things. So I am trying to direct my focus on all the huge blessings I have and move past this latest heartache. And really, I have SO much to be thankful for - it truly is astounding! Just finding a program that works for us to lose this weight and change our lives is the hugest thing ever in my life! I know I am so blessed. So my focus is: Have an Attitude of Gratitude.
The other day I had an egg beater scramble with smoked salmon. I used 1 cup of egg beaters and about 3-4 ounces of smoked salmon and scrambled them with peppers and mushrooms. I put it on a 7” plate. It was tasty.
After church last Sunday, the hubs made me these two waffles from 1 packet of our Medifast chocolate chip pancakes. (He added some egg beaters along with the water to make it thicker). Then he drizzled some Walden Farms sugar free syrup. WOW... so yummy! (seems too sinful to be healthy!).
I also got this idea from Lyn at Escape from Obesity about taking a Medifast soup mix and adding just 3 T. water and a squirt of yellow mustard, mixing and spreading it out on parchment paper and microwaving for 2.5 minutes or so, and then cool and break into chips. It was nice to have something to crunch on. I ate mine with a triangle of light laughing cow cheese. Just make sure you don’t microwave it too long as it can start to burn on the bottom. I will be trying this again. They’re called soup chips.
Sticking on plan here and looking forward to weigh in on Saturday. I am dying to see the pics from our photo shoot... hopefully soon!! *Hugs* ~Margene