I have been avoiding posting recently as I have been wanting to get myself in a better place emotionally. I’m not doing terribly bad or anything but I have been struggling over the train wreck situation I mentioned in my previous post and I really don’t want all my posts to detail my heartache over this. The level of rejection and efforts she's gone through to eradicate me from her life is astounding. Needless to say, it’s been one of my most painful experiences. I will be mourning this loss of my friend for some time. BUT, I am moving on and there are many wonderful things in my path.
My husband is also finally ready to begin again so he can FINISH his weight loss journey. Stress and anxiety has been his biggest hurdle and he’s at a place now where he feels he can focus on getting the rest of his weight off. So I am right there with him and we’re going to DO THIS!!
I have also been totally LOVING the indoor rock climbing! Wow, it’s SOOO fun! Brent came the other day and watched me and my daughter climb. It was fun to have him watch me and of course, I wanted to climb the harder walls to show him what I could do.
The first wall I climbed to show Brent - I am on the left side
On to more walls...
These walls are 35 feet tall.
left pic - I am at the top!!
right pic - I love the challenge tackling an angle
Reaching the top every time is awesome!
My hands get all red and blistered after 2 hours of climbing!
I wanted to amaze him and think I did. I did actually fall for the first time (but my daughter was belaying me so I didn’t really fall down) but I was on a wall that was at a VERY STEEP angle and I jumped for a new hand hold and missed it and went swinging off the wall. My heart almost leaped out of my chest as I haven’t done that before. It was a thrilling scare though. When you do jump for that hand hold and actually get it, it’s such an adrenaline rush to actually DO IT! At least for me.
And - even tho I am very bummed NOT to go to Oregon and run my first 1/2 marathon.... I have taken the advice to find one here and still run one.
SOOOO, I signed up for a half marathon here in UTAH!!
I won’t be stopped from my goals! And my running buddy is gonna run it with me. It'll be in July. Very cool. PLUS - Brent wants us to do a 5K together this summer so he has something to train for. That is cool. I haven’t run with my hubs at all yet! Can’t wait for that. I also hope to do some biking this summer.
THIS saturday, my daughter and I are running a COLOR RUN 5k called Color Me Rad. We will get blasted with colors at certain points during the run. It will be so fun and memorable.
So, even with a painful heartbreak, I can move on, I can seek those who do value me and my friendship, and I can forgive and let things go. For me, I’m wanting to balance my FAITH in the future and what God can do, with ACCEPTANCE for how things are now. And with that faith, I have to realize that everyone has their free agency to make their own choices. And I have my free agency to CHOOSE to see the BEST in myself and others.
Hard, Hard, Hard lessons!!
But Sweet, Sweet, Sweet rewards.
LIFE IS GOOD!