I just got back from the gym and it's 12:40 am. I'm so glad I went. I walked for 2 miles on the treadmill at an incline of 5 and speed of 3.5, and cycled over 3 miles on the bike over "hills"... that was a killer! I love the feel of that burn in my legs! I had a lady take picture so I could prove to Brent I was there (not that he wouldn't have believed me, tho lol)
I've been staying up too late with him gone... but I am trying not to. Yet I can feel that we are being blessed. I am feeling so thankful tonight... for my kids, for this time I have with them to bond a little more as a "single" parent. I'm thankful for the support I feel while my husband is gone, and for the sweet spirit in our home. I'm thankful for my opportunities to serve that help me think outside myself and bring me joy. I am thankful for my dear friends... in the real world and in blog land. My relationships are my driving force in life and what I cherish the most and I am so grateful for loving family and friends!
I am so thankful to those who rejoice with me in coming out of my "prison" of obesity and who listen, tolerate and empathize in all the incredible discoveries of my journey. The year 2010 up till now has been the most dramatic experiences in my entire 42 years of mortal life! It's like bringing that Iron Curtain down. I feel humbled and thankful to have such a blessing and to be working to free myself from the thoughts of self-loathing that have bound me for SO LONG!
I've been listening to a favorite song called "Amazing Grace/My Chains Are Gone" and it certainly feels like my personal theme song with this journey of losing my weight and gaining my self-worth! I love the chorus when they sing: "My chains are gone, I've been set free. My God, My Savior has ransomed me. And like a flood, His mercy reins, unending love, Amazing Grace." It brings tears to my eyes every time. I feel like I have been ransomed!
Brent comes home this weekend. I am more than a little excited to see him. It's only for 2 days... but boy, are we going to make the most of those 2 days!! Life is GOOD!! XOXO ~Margene
PS - Wouldn't it be So cool if I reached my goal this weekend?? I am trying SO hard to be strictly on plan... I wavered a little yesterday by eating a little beef jerky but working it out today!