I've been reading my blog list posts but haven't commented as much as I used to. I hope all my blogger friends still know I keep you in my thoughts and prayers!
Life is so different and fun and crazy and hectic. I would love to have a best friend here to call and talk about things more often. I find that I crave that interaction and relating. Yet, I am blessed with wonderful friends who tolerate my ramblings and long emails.
Having teens is so much fun, yet it requires SO much emotional effort than when they were little. I have so much more appreciation for my own sweet mother and all she did for me, most of which I did not recognize or truly appreciate until now. I can see that in my own teens now. But they are good kids with strong amazing spirits and I feel blessed to be their mother.
My younger daughter is taking a foods class at school and she is learning to make some tasty things. Things like cookies, brownies, cobblers, pancakes, etc. I have already been guilted into eating some of her delicious creations here at home.
The other day she made cookies and then rainbow cupcakes. All night I thought about how I knew I would eat way too many of those if they were in the house. So I got up early and wrapped all those cookies in little containers and all the cupcakes in a paper bowl. Then, as my kids and husband left for school and work, they each got a goodie bundle to share with their friends and co-workers.
How Brilliant is that? I felt so good! I had successfully thwarted myself from the oppressing GUILT I would have felt AFTER I would have eaten most if not all those sugar bombs had they been left in the house. I was FREE to enjoy my day eating only healthy foods.
Or so I thought...
When my older daughter got home from school, I asked her if she enjoyed sharing the cookies I sent. Now this daughter LOVES to share treats with friends so I was sure she'd have a fun story to tell. But she only shared two cookies and pretty much forgot about the rest of them. I thought she ate the rest herself... but no, they were there in her back pack.
I was really HUNGRY when she told me that.
Drat! Those cookies were enjoyed by me with a glass of milk and devoured in less than 5 minutes. They were so good. And then I didn't feel so successful anymore. I think my feelings of brilliancy got swallowed with the cookies and milk. (At least it was fat free milk)
If I would have paused for a few minutes to think before I dived into her back pack, I COULD HAVE saved them for when my son got home and quickly gave them to him. Or gone out and tried to find some neighbors I haven't met and introduced myself and gave them the cookies. Heck, we have dogs now so I could have given them to the dogs (except they shouldn't eat choc. chips). I could even have crumbled them up and shoved them down my disposal yet that seems kind of wasteful. They did have some of my whole wheat flour in them. So maybe they were kind of healthy?
No. I can't buy that.
But anyway. Alas, I am so evidently human that I can only laugh. Laughing is funner than crying and crying just gives me a headache anyway! I certainly don't need a headache.
I think I will encourage my daughter to learn to make main dish meals now. Ones that are healthy and nutritious. I certainly would love to taste test those ones. But I am happy she is learning and getting excited about actually doing something in the kitchen. What's a mom to do?
Saturday, my older daughter and I are going on a bike ride with some other young women clear up the valley on a 15 mile trek. I am looking forward to that.
Have a healthy and fabulous weekend my friends. Remember to PLAN ahead and make good healthy choices!! You are worth that. Life is good! XOXO ~Margene