Our Quest to change our lives began in Feb. 2010 and we lost 224 lbs. This is the story of our continuing Journey through the ups and downs of maintenance.
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Monday, July 5, 2010

Comparison Pics along with my thoughts

Today at church, I had quite a few comments on my weight loss... the most I've ever had, really. I almost just don't know what to say or how to handle it. It's like I've lost enough to make it noticeable now. So, I put these pics together for my own comparison. I see that woman on the very left and inside I still feel like I am her. It is the weirded thing! I feel self-conscious as if I am that heavy still. But I love feeling better and all the NSV (non-scale victories) that I am having. I wish I could put into words how LIFE CHANGING it has been for me!

My man looked at that pic of himself on the left and said "I don't even remember being that big." Okay, why does HE get to not remember? :) I have watched HIS life transform in the last few months. He has also recently gotten on an ADD medication dosage that is changing his life and allowing him to THINK, FOCUS, and see things like he hasn't before so that combined with his weight loss has been amazingly life changing for him. My heart is so full in gratitude that he is feeling better and happier and so much more hopeful. He really is the most awesome guy I know!!

These last two days have been very astounding, emotional, and endearing between my man and myself as we have talked and worked through (and cried through) some long on-going trials & heartaches. Yet an amazing piece of clarity has come from it. I believe in personal revelation from God and I believe that my husband can receive divinely inspired promptings for the benefit of his family (including me!). And I know the Lord has revealed a truth to me through my husband that has shed so much light on years and years of prayers. I feel so humbled and so very thankful for the blessings I have. I hope I can remember this when the trials come again.

The longer you wait for something, the more it means to you when it finally comes. And in my case, there are SO many wonderful blessings I have but MOST of them I have had to WAIT for. Have I mentioned that I am not good at waiting? My man KNOWS that 1 year in normal time is equivalent to approx. 6 years in "Margene time"! This is true! You have no idea! But I tell you, I don't take my blessings for granted and I don't think of them lightly. I KNOW where they come from and HE who blesses me with them. So maybe those are lessons I've needed to learn (drat... I hate having to always learn lessons - I need a lesson-break here!!).

I've been realizing that both my man and I are such LATE BLOOMERS!! We are both the youngest of big families and we were clueless parents and socially delayed and awkward misfits... I could go on and on. But it has taken ALL THESE YEARS to reach a point where we feel like we can contribute and serve the Lord more fully, and not be TOTAL dorks in social settings. (We're still immature mind you, but not overly dorky anymore) Everything that seems to come so easily for others seemed (and seems) so much harder for us... but NOW we're getting it. NOW, we're beginning to see that "bigger picture" and realize all the "big lies" that set us back from reaching our potential. I don't know if this makes any sense but it kind of does to me right now, although it is way late (after 2 am) and I need to get to bed. Goodnight my dear readers!! (If you made it this far, you are a true saint!)


spunkysuzi said...

You are both doing great!! And the difference in your pictures is amazing. Keep up the good work.

Drazil said...

Awesome posts. And stunning pictures...wow.

Lesia said...

Wish I had done the shots like you did over my weight loss journey. I appreciate a spiritual blogger. Thank you for the uplifting post.smile.

P.S. and your kind comments are great thank you.

ladyofthehouse said...

First, congratulations to you and your husband! Look at those pictures!! You two have done absolutely amazing and should feel so good about all you've accomplished. Not to mention the inspiration you give others by sharing your stories!
Second, I hear you on not taking God's gifts for granted (big and small). I hate to wait too and I'm also in the 'waiting room' for a few things in my life. It's one of the hardest places to be. I feel like I'm always praying "Ok God, I will wait on you and your perfect timing, but could you please hurry up?" I'm my own worst enemy!
It can be so hard to fit in socially. Just remember to always be who God made you!
Have a wonderful week and thanks so much for all of your support!!!

Jennifer said...

Margene- I am just so happy for you. I am happy for your weight loss but also for this self discovery process you are going through. I went through a hard time a while back and and now I realize that God did get me through it. And....I might even be a better person now for having gone through the tough times. I admit your post did lose me a bit in some spots but I am sure there is a lot of personal stuff that is hard to put on a blog so I truly understand that. But I did get the big picure that you are growing as a person and learning who you are and what you are capable of. And I am just so happy for you. I also noticed on your ticker that you are almost into ONEderland! A couple more pounds and you will be there! And I will be there as one of your biggest supporters! Keep it up Margene. I look forward to what you have to say everyday!


Lor said...

you are wonderful and inspiring! i love reading your blog! keep it up!! :D


Lucy said...

I definitely believe in personal revelations and that God does speak to the heart of his people ... and even those who aren't but who are searching and reaching out for something more than this world can give them.

You are in such a great place and it is reassuring to read how God is involed in your life!

p.s: I had to show my husband your husband's pics...wow. And your pics ... "You've come a long way baby!" And it's only the beginning - How exciting!

lynnss1 said...

Hi Margene... love your last two posts. The 5k was such fun healthy family bonding for your crew. The family pics are great! And I love how Mickey is just hanging off of you in your progress pics. I'm getting used to comments about my weight loss (pretty cool, huh?) and my advice to you is to just flash them a big smile and say "thanks for noticing!"

As for reaching your potential... you just have to take that first step that might be outside your comfort zone. Mine (way before I lost any weight) was when I said yes to an invitation to sit on our youth council at church. Didn't really want to do it, but I'm so glad I did. It helped me find a way to plug into the congregation. I'll cross my fingers that the new Margene (and hubby) find a place to plug in...

Major closet cleaning today... since I'm at goal and 3 sizes smaller that I've been in 20 years. There is nothing in the closet that isn't my new size. Nothing to fit into if I creep up a size, so there'll be no creeping for this girl!

Speaking of girls... went bra shopping today... swear I lost half my weight in mine and what's left of them is drooping!

Have a great week!


Sam said...

I'm happy to be your 50th follower!! Woo hoo!! :D And can I just say WOW!! Both of your pictures are just amazing! You have both come so far!! I am glad to know you!

MaryFran said...

You both look incredible!

And yes, your final paragraph...made total sense to me!

Bringing Pretty Back said...

Where do I start with this comment!? I loved your comment you lefy on my blog about you and your hubby! wow! so many similarities on our lives! This is a special and touching post you wrote. Your weight loss is incredible and you look beautiful.
Your hubby looks great too!
I am so happy you are getting comments from people about your weight loss! Just say "Thank You"!
I am happy you and your hubby had an honest open talk and things that have been between you.
I am excited to see how you two grow together in the future.
Have a pretty night,

Heidi said...

AWESOME post, Margene! And the comparison pictures are so inspiring! You've done such a great thing to help change your life (and your hubby has done the same)! I want to say that I can relate to your feelings of that you don't feel like you look different when you look in the mirror. Even though I've lost 33 pounds, I still feel like I have that 33 pounds packed on when I look in the mirror. But, I can see it (although little) in pictures. I haven't gotten to the place where people have noticed, which I am desperately waiting for!! I need some outside confirmation!

I just want to congratulate you on your success and I love seeing your growth in the Lord as you continue this process. All my best to you and your hubby!

P.S. Thanks for all the sweet comments on my blog. I REALLY appreciate them!

Alisa said...

Hi Margene,I'm new to your blog. I saw you from the foodie blog roll and I want to congratulate you and your husband for what you have accomplished. This is exactly what me and my husband need right now, an inspiration to get off our butts and start getting active and eat healthy meals.I look forward to following you and reading back to your old post to guide us through our own journey too!

A Journey to a new me... said...

How did I miss this post? You BOTH look awesome! Actually, you look beyond awesome but I don't want you to get a big head (ha ha ha like that would happen!).

Congratulations and continued good and blessed days ahead!