Monday, August 30, 2010
Sunday, August 22, 2010
What Difference Does 89 Pounds Make??
(I admit... I cried while writing this - words alone can't express what it's like "coming out of prison"!)
- I can go on amusement park rides with my kids!
- I can handle long walks and climbing hills without panicking
- I can sleep on my back or tummy!
- I can bend down and tie my shoes!
- I have a lap!!
- I can cross my legs when sitting!
- I can ride my bike!
- I can roller skate!
- I can climb a big ginormous sand cape!
- I can fit in any car’s seat belt
- I can hug my man closer - and my kids too!
- I can feel like I’m NOT the fattest person everywhere I go
- I can feel more in control of my body and health.
- I can live longer and not die at age 56 like my mother and her mother!
- I can feel more self-worth!
- I can let go of the fear that my kids are embarrassed by me (at least due to my weight, tee hee)
- I can stop being self-conscious and focus more on the needs of those around me.
- I can offer support and encouragement to others.
- I can let go of the limits to my goals and dreams!
- I can feel good about the way I look - I can even feel beautiful!
- I can see the good in others now that I see it more in myself! (this is huge!)
- I can “run and not be weary” and “walk and not faint”
What else do I want to do as I continue my journey?
- I want to have Optimal Health for the rest of my long life!
- I want to be a good example to my kids of being fit and healthy
- I want to BE THERE for my kids through all their joys and sorrows of life
- I want to be able to run - I want to be a runner and do a 5k, then a 10K and more.
- I want to have the strength, endurance and skill to go for long bike rides - weekly!
- I want to LOVE exercising and moving and make it part of my daily life
- I want to jump from a plane with my man
- I want to travel and explore beautiful and new places
- I want to go hiking, backpacking, and camping often with my family
- I want to learn ballroom dancing w/ my man
- I want to learn hip hop dancing w/ my man
- I want to continue to learn about good nutrition and try new healthy foods & veggies
- I want to be open to try all kinds of new things that I’ve never done before!
- I want to face all my fears (although maybe not all at once)
- I want to get used to doing something out of my comfort zone each day - until it becomes the norm.
- I want to make optimism, cheerfulness, and enthusiasm be my norm.
- I want to embrace life instead of fearing it
- I want to motivate, inspire and uplift others
- I want to help others feel this good.
- I want to become the woman that God wants me to be
Saturday, August 21, 2010
I lost 5 pounds last week!!!! And my man lost 2 pounds!!
(Notice how this is the exact reverse of last weeks results where I lost 2 and he lost 5)
I know I had a bigger loss this week because I really worked on being more true to the program. I am back to measuring my portions and not rationalizing eating any foods that are off plan. I already know this plan works so I am sticking to it. I want to get the rest of this weight off my body and then I can transition into more options. It’s all GOOD!
Can anyone possibly understand how a person just released from prison would feel? To finally have the chains, bars and cuffs removed and to feel personal liberty and freedom again after it has been taken for a time.
I reflected on that thought today as I have gone over my journey. I feel as if I am slowing COMING OUT OF PRISON, and I didn’t even realize how much in prison I really have been! All the little things mean SO much when you’ve been without it for so long. Like just this last week, I was sitting by a lady who had her legs crossed and I wondered to myself if I could cross mine yet... so I tried and I could!! I had a little thrill inside because I could finally sit w/my legs crossed like other women do! I couldn’t wait to tell my hubby!
I have been in bondage to obesity for 20+ years. I have been in a personal, tormenting prison of self-loathing, endless pains, and loss of freedom. I will NEVER FORGET and I will NEVER GO BACK.
I feel like I am finally on a different path going in a different direction and it feels liberating! Isn’t it amazing how when you take control of what you eat and make better choices, it actually gives you more freedom?
I have learned in Dr. A’s book (Habits of Health) that I want my goals to be for what I WANT and not what I don’t want. Example: When we have goals like - I don’t want to be in pain anymore, I don’t want to be fat anymore, I don’t want to feel sick, etc. What happens is that as soon as you start to not have pain or not feel fat or sick (or whatever the goal is), the motivation ends and the diet or actions taken stop. Then we slip back into old habits until we feel fat or sick again and can’t take it anymore then it all starts over. Thus we get into the “yo yo” dieting where we lose and gain and it gets worse every time. This WAS me!!!
Instead, I am going to focus my goals on what I WANT. Example: I want to have optimal heath, I want to run a 5k then a 10K and more, I want to go on long bike rides a few times a week, etc. So my goals are what I want and my choices each day are going towards these goals that I am seeking. No more “yo-yoing” for me. This is IT! My life is not going to be the same as it was before!
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Last Week I lost 2 pounds and my hubs lost 5 pounds!!! He has pushed through his hurdle of getting past that 220 range. I took his pic this morning... as he was dancing and flexing around in his glee... what a comparison. I have my happy man back!
I’ve also learned, that on the Take Shape For Life Program (using Medifast food), I can’t rationalize my portions and sneak this and that into the plan, or I WILL drop out of “fat burning” mode. It’s calculated so specifically, with the nutrition, calories, carbs, and fat... that adding a snippet in here and there puts it off balance. The last thing I want to do is put my body in “starvation mode” where it will hold on to my fat instead of burning it. If my carbs go higher, my hunger and cravings increase and if the calories go higher, I no longer am using my fat stores to burn.
So both my man and I are RECOMMITTING to stay TRUE to this plan. Because, it WORKS!! And it’s NOT HARD to do. The Medifast food takes all the guess work out of it and they taste great. I just had let myself “eyeball” my portions (for my lean & greens) instead of measuring, and add a bite of this or that... you know how it goes. I even had some beef jerky as part of my lean the other day, even though that is not on plan at this stage. I Need to and Want to stay ON PLAN exactly... and not drag out getting this weight off. So stating this on my blog here, will help me remember and stay committed. :) And we both are very DETERMINED.
I sold a ton of my “favorite” big clothes this last week... the ones I was saving and still wearing but they are huge on me. And I am letting them go. I would give them away but right now money is tight. You should see my bare closet right now! One of the ladies I sold a ton of them to, came to my house from the bus in a motorized wheel chair. She was very big and I wanted to share this program with her and let her know her life could be better, but I sensed she wasn’t ready or interested. She left with a garbage bag filled to the brim with my clothes, holding them on her lap and by the feet of that wheel chair. But she was happy with the good deal I gave her. It was a reminder to me where I was headed, though. I remember using the wheel chair at Walmart a few times when I was too tired to walk around and in too much pain. It is hard work to be obese!! (and I still am, technically).
I had tuna for the first time on this plan. This is 2 cans (total 6 oz.) of sodium free tuna from Trader Joes with a little fat free mayo, Mrs. Dash, and some celery - along with my salad. It would taste good in a lettuce wrap, too, I think. :) Happy Weekend... How is YOUR plan going this week?