Because I was on the treadmill this morning, starting my 2nd week or training. My plan says to run for 2.5 min. and then walk 2.5, but I've been trying to push myself so I was going for 3 minutes. So as I start running, I focus on relaxing and breathing and try to let my mind focus on certain topics. When I think I've run for quite a while, I look down and only 30 freaking seconds have passed!!! Then my mind starts to think "Crap, I have 2.5 minutes left... how am I going to do this? How am I going to run for a full 5K come June? I can barely do this...." and on I go. I even thought I wouldn't be able to finish this work out.
So I try to STOP those thoughts and think "I am strong. I feel so light. My body feels lighter now. I can do this." But then only like 10 seconds have passed. I realize that I need to CONTROL THE MIND GAME! It's so easy to go into a panic mode.
There was a mirror in front of me about 30 feet away and I could see my face and how I'd tilt my head back as I jogged in kind of in a sense of exhaustion. So I decided to put my head straight and look at myself straight on... directly. And tell myself: I CAN DO THIS! Eye of the tiger, girl!!
So for 6 of the 11 sets of running I did 3 minutes at 4.5 speed, the other 5 I did for 2.5 minutes... and on the last run, I bumped up the speed to 5.5 the last 30 seconds and KICKED IT OUT! And it felt good.
I see how mind games can mess up your eating, and your exercising if you don't control what you say to yourself! And not just what you say to yourself... what you BELIEVE about yourself. Believing it's possible is half the battle! That has been my core mantra in this whole journey and it always comes back to that! I will be working on my self-talk and belief continually - one day at a time because there is no going back for me!
Yesterday it was SO GORGEOUS here in Oregon, that after church, the kids and I went for a bike ride. We found some new trails at a park close by and it was so fun! I will miss the trees and gorgeous green here in Oregon.
Then, the kids stopped to swing on the swings and I joined in too. Here I am a 42 year old nut, swinging like a monkey... I'm such a dork. But dorks are fun! Life is Good!!
